I find it is much easier to build an idea than it is to actually deploy one. Deployment involves marketing, explanation and customer service; things I'd rather not do. This makes me a shitty entrepreneur. 

I have a hard time commiting to ideas. The notion of being tied to a single project/company for more than 3 years (even if successful) is depressing. 

I think I am just obsessed with creation. That is what gets me going; creating the thing. Everything else: ugh. 

Another requirement is that the thing has to be my thing. Ideally something that I can create an execute on from start to finish. 

This is stupid for many reasons. 

I alone cannot deploy many of my ideas. The thought of having to assemble an organization is to make an idea happen is something I dread. I acknowledge reality but just resist it. 

I think most people get their kicks from the organization part. They want the power or to control others. They want their logo on the side of a building. I just want to be original. 

I have to get better at deploying my ideas.